Current Residence: United States|
Favourite genre of music: Diverse
Create for the MassesAll I ever wanted was to love you.Create for the Masses by IAmDefective
I wanted to love you with everything that I am.
Full strength, with all that I have.
I don’t take this lightly and I wish that you didn’t.
Your smile sets me ablaze.
I won’t hold my breath so I can fuel this flame.
You radiate a warmth that melts me enough to thaw the ice around my heart.
My heart beats against my chest like it’s a prize fight.
Omnipresent are my thoughts of you that consume my very existence
Until I am just a fiend, needing a fix. Craving. Because no dose of you is enough.
If ever there existed cupids, I’ve been possessed; but I’ll gladly make room to be filled.
Filled with smiles. Filled with wonder. Yet still plagued by thoughts of you.
But you’re not in the right place right now.
You reject anything that could make you feel this way.
Why can’t it be enough?
Why can’t I?
Why can’t you?
Picking up all of the shards of your shattered soul, I soldered them back together.
Black NightIt used to be my favorite time of every day.Black Night by IAmDefective
When the light that illuminates all of my misdeeds subsides
And a pale offering, casting shadows takes its place.
I picked up a second wind that cared not for the many hours of strenuity that preceded.
The night was, for lack of a better metaphor, my playground.
Oh, the history we share.
It’s a good thing that it is very good at creating and keeping secrets.
But too often, upon recent reverie, it has begun to betray me.
My once trusted comrade now preys on what I used to hold dear.
My mind is wasteful in the day but outright damned by night.
The clarity that I used to receive, has never come again.
Thoughts go from flame to sizzle all before the clocks second hand slams forward.
I go from fatigue upon waking, to dragging lassitude as I find no footing in consciousness.
Nothing is getting accomplished anymore.
Nothing is stimulating.
Maybe being soulless has finally caught up with me.
At least I can take comfort in knowing that the dark
AnodyneYou knew I wouldn't runAnodyne by IAmDefective
I love a good challenge
And you only know difficult
Falling way too soon
My arms had no time to react
So I'll land on my back
And feel my skull crack
Hoping it makes the words in my head bleed out easier
I'll say all that I've wanted
But only to me.
Because you use calloused words of innocence to keep me at bay
Just hear me if listening makes you uneasy.
You can close your ears to the breath's inbetween
I only need you
“Needing", because “want" is fleeting
For feelings that surpass the filter confusion are a rarity
But you can feel it; same as I